The Spectacular Now

"Stuff has happened, sure. But stuff always happens, right? But the real challenge in my life, the real hardship...is me. It's always been me. As long as I can remember, I've never not been afraid. Afraid of failure, of letting people down, hurting people, getting hurt. Before, if I kept my guard up and focused on other things, other people... If I couldn't even feel it, then no harm would come to me. I screwed up. Not only did I shut out the pain, I shut out everything- the good and the bad-until there was nothing. It's fine to just live in the now.. but the best part about now is there's another one tomorrow. And I'm gonna start making them count."